The end of the beginning of my blogging.

Blogging has changed since I first began this site about 8 years ago.  It started as a way to keep a journal of sorts about Parker’s life and add in a bit of advocacy as well.  As time has gone on bloggers have made pretty successful businesses from their blogs.  I enjoyed opportunities of working with Brands and working online.  It seems that as this time of year rolls around I find myself trying to figure out what exactly I want to do with Praying for Parker.  After a lot of soul searching and prayer, I’ve decided that it is time for this to be the end of the beginning of my blogging.

I once blogged for the joy of sharing the beauty of being Parker’s Mama.  No SEO worries.  No spending time promoting my posts.  Just writing for the love of it.  Now you’ve got to be active on Twitter, jump through the never ending hoops put out by Google to show up some where the first thousand pages of a Google search, be active on Google+, post on other blogs in order to be identified as an ‘expert’ in your field, ad the list goes on.  What started out as a simple blog post has morphed into a full time activity.

snow

I’m going to be deactivating my Twitter and Google+ accounts.  Instead I may actually teach myself how to upload a picture or two on Instagram.  Cute pictures of an amazing kid with the bonus of not needing to figure out any SEO.

I’ll still keep my Pinterest Boards.  I have too many great educational ideas stored there.  By putting a drastic stop to my online time, I might even have the time to implement some of those ideas.

a little boy with down syndrome

For those who have asked to be Friends on my private Facebook page, please know that I’m not accepting any more friendships there.  I’ve been reducing my friends list as a matter of fact.  Parker does have a fan FB page and I will be updating that at least once a day.  A simple update, but an update none the less.

As far as what will be going on here, well, I‘m aiming for two posts a week. If I make that goal, well that will be awesome.  If I don’t, well that will be how people will know Parker needed me more.

a snow activity

I’ve tried blogging in the mornings.  I’m not a morning person though and that was time spent basically just looking at an empty screen without the brain power to string two words together.  It also meant that I wasn’t able to get outside and walk the way I used to.

I’ve tried blogging in the afternoons.  You know, the time my kids would come home from school wanting to share with me how their day went.  The time I used to spend doing things that helped to save money so that we can one day pay off the crazy amount of medical debt we owe on a certain Hero.   The time needed to keep a house running.

homeschooling a child with down syndrome

I finally decided that blogging at night was the best time.  Sitting all cozy after dinner was over and cleaned up seemed to be the very best time.  Except it was actually the very worst time.  Reed is exhausted when he comes home.  He needs time to decompress and he’s also the one who usually does the nightly running around of kids too young to drive.  If I was blogging and Reed was trying to rest enough to spend the night with Parker in his safe room, well that left Parker either being horrendously naughty or sitting quietly by himself stimming with his oxygen cord. 

I’ve tried a zillion ways to figure out how to do it all.  Homeschool.  Keep Parker alive.  Keep a home running.  Be a wife and a mother to my other 5 kids and still find a way to keep myself healthy.  It’s taken a few really scary experiences, but I’ve finally, FINALLY figured out that I simply can’t do it all.  Who’d a thunk?

The only thing that I have that I can afford to let go of is my bordering on compulsive computer time.

Having this beautiful little boy of mine walk up and in great frustration slam down the top to my laptop has finally been the wake up call I’ve needed.  Well, that and watching him do things just for the attention rather it be positive or negative.  My heart simply broke when I realized what I had been trying so hard to rationalize.

Things HAVE to change.  And so they are.  Starting this very minute. 

There’s a real world out there beyond this computer screen.  While mine and Parker’s world may start and end within our little  bits of lawn, it’s time to get back to adventures and smiles and proving to my Father in Heaven just how grateful I am to be a wife and mother.

It’s time to get back to joy.

About Tammy and Parker

Special Needs Blogger, and homeschooling Mom, heavily involved in advocacy for all kids with special needs in Utah.

Comments

  1. maria cordner says:

    I hear you my friend! You know better you internal clock than anyone. Let me tell that in my view you have done wonderful things in this blog, one of them is to create a wonderful record of love for your family. I hope you have download and safe a copy of all these wonderful posts. The warrior needs care or nobody carries the lance and shield. Do what you feel like doing and follow your instinct. xoxo

  2. Yeah, I totally agree! It’s hard because we have a grown up interactive world in this screen (for me staying home with three toddler/pre-schoolers) and I don’t want to give it up. But I’ve come to peace definitely about my blog and I just don’t stress as much if it doesn’t get as maintained. Last year the number of posts almost halved from the previous three years. But since I wasn’t really making any money off it anyway… oh well!
    We’ll still be here for you though! :)

    • I hear you. It’s making SUCH a huge difference for the positive here, and especially with Parker. Reed almost fainted when I told him though. heh. I’m still going to go for twice a month though. Fingers crossed!

  3. Carey says:

    Parker and your family is your first priorty! And you are doing what is best! Know that ive enjoyed reading your blog and I am happy to pray for your handsome little guy always! Thank you for your honesty and friendship. Heres to more family time, time well spent!

  4. I miss the old days of blogging when it was a small community of moms who just wanted to share the lives of their families with each other. Now its all about experts and writing books and networking and getting in with the in crowd. I miss the good old days, many moons ago.

    Nell

  5. Blogging can become such a job! So many hoops to jump. Timing and finding the right things that suite you and your family is key :D good luck with your new route! Visiting from #SITStribe

  6. Family first, always. It is difficult to juggle so much, so often, and social media complicates it tenfold by too much incoming info all. the. time. Good for you for following your heart and taking a step back! Visiting from #SITStribe

  7. It’s nice to meet you and Parker. I agree that blogging has taken on a whole new life and that it is a huge time suck. I’ve resolved to make it easier for myself too in some ways, but I’m still just not ready to do instagram.

  8. Blogging has definitely changed in the past 5-10 years. I’m coming up on year 6 myself.

  9. Always smart to go with your gut. Everything will fall into place. #SITStribe

  10. Stopping by from the #SITStribe! This is the first time I’ve visited your blog but I cant wait to read more. Parker has an amazing story, and from what it sounds like an even more amazing Mom!

  11. Hi Tammy! Good for you! Blogging is a LOT of work, so many platforms to keep up with and stats to look at. It’s not easy. It’s also very time-consuming. I think if you find what works for you, you’ll be successful! You don’t have to give up your soul to blog.

  12. Hi there, I’m part of your Sits Tribe and I totally get this post. I also started blogging about adopting a child with special emotional/behavioral needs just to share the experience and have a way to organize my thoughts and track her progress. About a year ago I started trying to turn a bit of profit with it and it’s turned it into a bit more work than I’m happy with. Trying to find the balance myself! Good luck as you try to turn your blog back into something that works better for you!

  13. Family is always the first priority, then work and then blogging for me. I love blogging and I work it into my schedule – and make time for it. I’m like you it’s mostly at night because days are too crazy! #SITSTribe

  14. Chris says:

    I hope that you do occasionally update for us cave people that don’t do FB/twitter/ instagram (I’m probably leaving something out that shows just how backward I am…). Then again, maybe I am the only such Neanderthal, and you can just shoot me an email every now and again!

    Seriously, though, you have to do what’s best for you and your family. I don’t blame you at all.

  15. LauraLaura says:

    Miss you and Parker already!

  16. One of my BIGGEST pet peeves is the chatter about blogging the “right way,” often enough, hit counts, comment counts, comments from the right people, the best header to entice traffic, etc. The people I love best are “…Just writing for the love of it.”

    Carry on – when you can and when it makes you happy, we’ll be here.

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